崩溃

我真的崩溃了...

一连串的assignment 和小考让我喘不过气来

我无法再继续下去

觉得自己不是读这一科的料子..=(

好想放弃_

现在的我根本连望notes都不要..

没人能帮得了，除了自己

可我连帮也不想帮我自己

谁能告诉我

我该怎么办..

choose according your will

i feel like crying

i feel so stupid

and

i feel so sorry

sorry to myself

sorry to my parents

and

sorry to my group members

since the new semester starts,

i don't know what am i doing.

i don't even understand what the lecture or the tutor taught or said

i don't even understand what should i answer in the assignment question

i don't even understand what should i answer in the individual test during mid-term

it's wrong since the beginning

i should have choose the field that i interested with

i should have not choose the field that i'm not interested with

i hate accounts

i hate mathematics

i hate calculations

maybe

i should discuss with my parents

i should withdraw from this sucks course

i should not waste my time doing things that i don't like

这两天的我有点失落
再过两个星期就是我Diploma 的毕业典礼了..
早前一个月我就通知家人
好让他们当天能出席
尤其是老爸
可昨天他却说他没办法出席
原因？
要工作
咳...
工作固然重要
但
难道一天不工作不行吗?
我真的很希望当天爸爸能出席
一起分享我的喜悦..
我这小小的要求也不能为我牺牲一天的工作吗?
我真的很失落
我真的很失望
我真的很难过

it's around the corner

aww...it's around the corner!!

every time i think about it,

i feel worry

i feel disappointed

i want some miracle

i want some surprise

but i know miracle and surprises will not come

miracle,

surprises will not come to those who didn't did their best=(

yes, it will not!

10 more days, 10 more days results will be announce.

arh!! suffering =(

but if i fail, i will have no regret

cause i really did it badly.

if i pass, Thank God !!

see what's my result 10 days later.=X

counting down 13days

it's the day i looking for every year..

don't know why i'm so looking forward.

maybe cause

i love party?

i love surprises?

i love present?

but always i can;t get as what i expected.

maybe my expectation is too high..

i wish to have surprises..

but always there was zero surprises.

i wish that something can makes me feel touch and make my tears to flow out,

but....

hmm...i hope there would be something special this year.=)

holidays with worry

finally, it comes to the end

and here comes the holidays..

but it was not a happy holidays..

it was a worry holidays =(

what makes me feel worry?

is this the question you wanna ask?

well,

its my final exam result i'm worrying

it was not as good as i expected.

i can feel it, coz i didn't do well ..=(

i do hope there was miracle in this world for this moment.

for real, i do hope.

i do hope i can graduate smoothly not to disappoint my parents.

i hope i can be pride for my parents in front of their friends.

don't you think so?

don't you think when you have children and they did well you will be proud in front of ur frens?

for now,

i still in the 'ocean' of worry.

i'm in the ocean.

hope for miracle too.

final semester of Diploma.

after 2 years of study

here comes the final semester of my Diploma life..

and here comes the final exam..

good luck in exam everyone!=)

差一点

i still remember it's Sunday

i was thinking whether i should let go

i were emo for the whole saturday night..

thinking why he could forgot what i've told him..

thinking we've been together for about 2 years and yet he don't know that i don't like being told things last minute..

i've been telling him my way of living when we get together initially.

but why?

why can he fogot what i've said...

and,

both of us were about to:

i raised it up.

i asked him ''what if one day i say want to brake with you.''

i know that it wasn't a big matter to raise the 2 words out.

but i can't control myself to keep thinking about that.

we discussed that issue and at last, we didn't brake up.

we knew that we both still love each other very much.

i can't live without him and so do him...

we promise each other not to leave each other..

i believe we can do it if i didn't think too much again..

I ♥ You

2 more days to go.=D

it's 10 July 2011 today babe.

2 more days to go and it's our 1 year and 9 months anniversary.=)

i guess we are not going to celebrate it anywhere.

cause i know you will be rushing for assignment on that day..

it's ok with me actually..cause im looking forward for our 2 years anniversary much more than this!=)

hmmm...time really flies..

i cant believe we've been together for almost 2 years..

since the month of June 2009 till today 10 July 2011...

we've known each other for more than 2 years..

how amazing..

if no sudden event, i will appreciate you for the rest of my life..

10 July 2011

it's Saturday.

i stayed in the hostel as im not going back to hometown due to coursework test on Monday.

hmmm...it's Law paper..

the subjects that i dislike.

cause there are a lots of Sections to memorise.

but for sure, i didn't memorise ><

i will only memorize when there is final exam =.=lll

hmm...hope i can pass this subject..

i know i didn't pay much effort on it..

i saw my sis uploaded my family's photo just now..

honestly, i miss my mama...

i miss my home so much.....

it's been one month i didn't return home...

test, wushu, both of this busy me up..=(

i swear im gonna back home next week after PA test.

although it's only for 24hours in home.

mama called me up last nite..

she advised me not to go out today

coz there's terriorisme goin on outside..

what's going on with the society nowadays?

can't we just live peacefully?

i feel it's so horrible and scary..

hope one fine day, all of us may live in peacefully..

bad mood

since last nite i have a very bad mood..

till today.

i can't control myself being so emotional.

or maybe i should say angry.

i were to learn new things in wushu last nite

and coz im stupid as wat he always say,

i cant follow up wat master has taught

or maybe the pose is nt as perfect as all of us expect.

i knw i didnt did it well.

i knw im not gud in it

bt can u juz encourage me by saying jia you rather than '酱差的啊?' PLEASE?!!

please lar, im new in wushu man!

u dissappoint me

and oso make me dissappointed on myself !

aren't a boyfriend should encourage his girlfriend and not to distract her by saying those word?!

haiz.

besides that, my leg was pain last nite due to wushu too.

bt 一句慰问的话都没有!

反而在一旁跟别的女生玩!

现在是什么啊？！当我没到？!

how am i not being emotional?

how can i dun feel angry?!

next step of my life

"What do you plan to do after you graduate from Diploma?"

this is the question that always been asked all these days..

this is also a question that i asked myself frequently these days as this is the final semester for my Diploma level.

seriously, i don't know what is the next move i want or i plan to take.

i've thought of wanted to work after Diploma,

i've thought of continue Advanced Diploma,

i've thought of proceed to Degree..

but all these decision is only last for a short period,三分钟热度.

i still can't confirm what is the next step of my life...

i might as well find a work to earn money from young?

or might as well proceed to Degree to gain more knowledge for better pay in the future??

it's very hard for me to make decision...

haiz...can anyone tell me what is the next move i should take?

Amazing Results! ^.^

i shud update my blog on time actually,

bt i was too lazy to log in..

until today, i decide to update ..=P

well, i've got my final exam's results!^^

and im happy with my result.

u knw why??

coz i passed all my subjects!!!!!

i was like ''WOW!!!!!"

when i get to knw my result =DD

i tell myself, "finally i did it!"

coz for the passed 5 sems, i've been failing at least one subject every semester started from the first semester..><

can u imagine hw dissappointed i am when i saw my result for the passed few sems..=(

tat is why i felt sooooooo Happy when i knw i passed all the subjects~

i finally knw tat u will deserve a good result when u work hard..

i hope i will do it as well in dis semester in order to graduate on time!

not hesitate to tell u my results =P

ME A

MIS A-

MYOB A

MA B+

keep it up Charlotte!

u can do it!!

Jia you!!^^

6 May 2011

basically i hv been emo for abt 4 days..if im nt mistaken..

i dun knw why...

i dun knw why i cant juz let it go..

maybe i were juz too small gas..maybe.

maybe, im still waiting him to do somethng to make me happy..

bt actually he did. he do try to make me happy

bt then, my heart still feel angry, unhappy, dissappointed..

till nw, i gt ntg to talk,ntg to chat with him..

we were nt like previous anymore..

thngs between us changed..

tmr(7 May 2011) will be his 21th advanced birthday party...

honestly, i feel excited before we argue..

bt after argument, i hv no feeling with it anymore..

moreover, i was thnking hw am i goin to face him tmr?

can anyone tell me what's wrong with me?

pretty

after my observation,

i realised tat The best accessory a girl can own is confidence.

a girl will naturally become pretty when they hv confident.

hmm...

i hope i can be pretty too...

bt too bad..im nt><

lack of confidence i guess=P

eventually, i realised tat im gaining weight!><

my face from 'V-shape' turns into round,

my waist from 26 increase to 28 i thnk..=(

i told myself to keep fit actually...

bt too bad..

my will nt strong enuf..

i continue to eat rather than exercise><

hmm...

i thnk i shud start from today! [i hope i can do it=X]

gambateh!=)

[ 宿舍一人篇 ]

经过一连串的lecture,

tutorial,

coursework,

assignment,

还有FINAL EXAM,

终于,来到了所有活在这世界上的人都爱的[假期]!=D

这次的假期长达一个月呢! 多好啊!

可很不幸的是，我必须在假期的第三个星期回到学院..=(

原因？

原因是因为我加入了拉曼学院武术研究会.(p/s: 嫁鸡随鸡 xD, 开玩笑的啦~)

学会为了要在society day当天要我们表演一些东西给新的学生，所以要练习..

就这样，我只享受短短两个星期的假期..

也就这样现在的我就在宿舍的食堂独自一人上网,写写部落..

每天就困在房间里对着电脑..不是看戏,就是听歌,不然就是玩游戏..

说实话，真的有够力无聊的咯~

没人陪我聊天..每天看戏就只有戏里的人对我说话,而我却不能对它说话>

hmmm....有朋友在身旁的确是好的..

至少可以聊聊天..

还好早上又到学院练习武术，还有人可以和我聊天..=)

希望我这几天不会闷到'发霉'吧~=X

23 FEB 2011..[RESULT]

result is OUT!!!!!!
oh gosh....
i tried to online abt 10am bt thr is no line for me to surf the net..>wait and wait and wait for thr line in the end no..=='''
thus,i decide to gv up as i waited for so long and the time to go college is around the corner..

around 1pm+,babe ask for my password of tarc intranet and he check my result for me.
oh god...
seriouly, i dun dare to open my msg by the time the msg was delivered to me..=3
i dare up myself and open up my msg,
surprisingly,i passed all subjects except MA..T.T
bt i feel glad abt it actually.
coz i tot i will failed more than a subject..
phew..1 subject is ok for me as it is my 'culture'..=='''

nw,my wish is to pass all subjects in this sem and oso the last sem..
GOD BLESS me~~

JIA YOU charlotte!!=)

22 Feb 2011

exam result is coming out by tmr...=3

seriously,i feel nervous and scare as well.

coz i knw my result will be kinda sucks dis time as i didnt do well in the exam..

i knw, tmr will be an unhappy day for me

i knw, i will feel vry dissappointed of myself tmr..

i knw,my parents will dissappointed on me as well when they get to knw tat..

i knw, i will be scolded by father when he knows tat..

i knw, i hv to waste another RM100 for each subject i failed...

i knw...i could predict wat will happen tmr..

i wanted to chg the fact..

bt it's too late..

i cant chg it,

i've no power to do tat..

the only thng i could do is feeling sad,

the only thng i could do is feeling unhappy,

the only thng i could do is feel dissappointed,

the only thng i could do is do well for dis semester..[i dunu whether i can]

i hope thr is miracle tmr...*pray*

Meet Up~(^.^)V

i thought i won't meet him up during CNY,
bt in the end,
i meet him up!=DDD
he came to my hse on the second day of CNY...
and he stays here until the seventh day of CNY...=)
hw happy am i for tat few days.
we visit frens hse,went for bbq, played with my frens, movie,sing k,and shopping

i guess he wasted lots of money dis time..
coz he treats me a lot..
thank u babe..=@

we took some photos together too!^^

i plan to wash those photo out..

hmmm...see when i free,i'll go wash lu~

he went bek home yesterday..

i thnk after valentine,dunu when can meet ler~

coz actually i scare..

we can meet each other everyday last time and nw the other way round,

i reli feel scare..

hmm...hope sometime we can meet each other lu~

and, valentine is coming..

i hope to gv you some surprise bt i dunu wat surprise i could gv u~

i thnk i will chg my mind,

not to gv u surprise,bt juz want to be with u on tat day..

Happy Chinese New Year~=)

today is the first day of CNY..=)
dunu why i woke up sooooo early though i didnt set alarm to wake me up..xD
slept at2.50am and woke up at 6.56 am..><
and yet,i dun feel a little sleepy..
maybe i ady get used to it??
i dunu..=P
hmmm...
新的一年，新的希望=)
hope in dis year,
all my family will be in the good health!
万事如意
心想事成...
and i hope i can ggraduate on time...=X
and i hope i can be slim..haha^^
hope everone enjoy their CNY lu~~

GONG XI GONG XI~^^

OMG!!

omg...

you knw wat??

i almost forgotten tat my little sis's birthday is around the corner...>

two more days is her birthday,

and three more days is my dad's birthday...>

hw hw hw??

no time for me to buy present for both of them ler...

and also...no $$...=(

hmmm....

hope they wont unhappy coz of no present lu~

soli....=(

next time 'bu hui qu'^^

lovely MAMA..=)

went for work dis morning at Blossom...

actually is helping my dad..=P

erm...slp at abt 3am in the morning and woke up again at 5.30am in the morning...

honestly,i feel a bit dizzy once i got up..=(

bt wat to do...

my dad cant handle his work himself...

thus,i hv to lend him my hand to overcome his difficulties...

hw 'xiao shun' am i..haha=P

i knw, i knw..=P

meet a little boy in dis morning..=)

u knw wat?

he is a 7 years old little boy bt he is vry talkative..><

he talks non-stop..

he tat my mum is an indian and he keep following my mum..

my mum speak, he speacks too..

my mum said 'meow...',he said 'moew' too...

in short,wat my mum did, he follows...

he makes me laugh...

bt actually in other words,

his behaviour is consider no manners...

bt nvm lar...

nt always,so i din scold him..=)

besides tat,i keep heard ppl saying tat me and my mom look alike..

haha^^

some of them ask are we twins??haha^^

and some ppl saying tat im PRETTY...haha^^

hw happy am i when i heard tat^^

no doubt,i reli look alike as my mother,

coz she is my MOTHER..

my lovely mother~=）

i love her..

although i never say it out..><

and actually i dun thnk tat im pretty...

coz im dark!><

and im fat!><

bt anyway,

im happy to heard tat praise..=)

Chinese New Year is coming soon..

wish everybody 'GONG XI FA CAI' oo~=)

[2011]

hmmm.....
'2011' reli nt a gud year??
nw i gt a bit feel tat '2011' nt a gud year oo...
1st i heard my fren said her grandpa died,
next is her bro accident,
then is my other fren accident,
and nw is my dad's boss son accident...=(
isn't is not a gud year???

hmm...
nw ah yong is still in hospital,
searching for o positive blood,
hope he will be fine...
GOD BLESS him......

25 Jan 2011-Our Day~♥

25 JAn 2011-Our Day~♥

although im busy with works..
bt i spend out some time to go shopping with my babe~=)
we went to Gs Wang and Times Square yesterday..
we bought our Chinese New Year clothes~^^
i bought 4 clothes for myself and a clothes for my beloved mama..=)
below are wat i hv bought=D

a dress blue in colour..=)

a blouse white in colour with little flower printed on it..=)

a blouse,erm...coffee in colour~@@
bt thr is a hole at my pinggang..=(

a yellow blouse..=)

i like dis!the colour is sharp^^

my babe and i at Imbi Monorial station..

before we leave each other...='(

in dis picture,i was crying...

babe & I~

on the way to Imbi Monorial station,

i pull my babe to the road side to snap a photo..

in Time Square with Slurppy~

babe's head is BIG~haha^^

Times Square Decoration...

Reunion Dinner..

babe~

mii~

im in the tandu..

goin to married..=P

babe with the MCDonald's spicy chicken mc deluxe~

yummy~

SG Wang decoration..

after we leave each other..

we dunu when are we goin to meet each other again..

maybe CNY,

maybe after CNY...

haiz...i really hate 分离的感觉...

it makes me cry...

hmm....

anyway..babe,

i will take care myself...

u hv to take care urself too oo..ok?

no matter wat,

i will wait to see you~

LOVE YOU~muacks~=)

a busy sem break...

it's been more than a week im at home for holiday~=)
bt since my holiday starts,
im already in the 'BUSY' situation...
except for the 1st day i return home..
once i get into my home,
i received my old fren msg.
she asked me whether i wanted to work...
for sure,to avoid me from being 'full of fungus' i promised her=)
work as a shampoo girl~^^
i like dis work actually..=D
wash customers hair,blow their hair,dye their hair=)
its quite an easy job.
bt wat i most dislike is i hv to stand for the whole day if there were customers cuming non-stop!><
tell you,if thr are customer cuming non-stop,
you dun even hv the time to eat....
hw pity my boss is when dis situation appears..
fortunately,im vry kind enough to help her~muahahahaha!!(syok sendiri><)
from the bottom of my heart,
i work as a shampoo girl,
is nt for money,
i were juz wanted to help my boss....
reli....

okay,done my story as a shampoo girl,
nw,is my story of being a butcher girl~=)
why am i being a butcher girl??
haha!the answer is vry simple...
coz my father is a butcher=)
Chinese New Year is coming vry soon...
it's around the corner.
therefore,
my father received lots of order,
he cant afford to do all those stuff by his own,
thus,my sister and i are vry filial piety enuf to help him...haha^^
actually the work are nt hard to do..
bt hv to stand lor...
thng tat i most hate...
i cant stand too long....
if i nt mistaken,
since secondary sch i cant stand too long...
if i stand too long,
my knees and 背部 will make me feel uncomfortable..
i thnk im lack of calcium..><
i'll try to drink some milk..>< (i dont like milk..)
i hv to help my dad until chinese new year...
hmmm....six more days to go...
jia you charlotte!you can do it!=D

請你體諒我會吃醋~

我想，谈过恋爱的人一定都会有这样的感受，看到自己的爱人和异性接触频繁、聊的投机或者背着自己和别人有着私下交往的时候，心里都会有酸酸的感觉，于是开始莫名的猜测。



爱你，所以才吃醋。如果没有爱，那么无论你做什么我也无所谓了。我也知道，聪明的人这时候应该表现得落落大方、不显露出半点妒意，可是，话是这样讲，能不能 做到又是另一码事了。有谁能够在爱情的天平上保持平稳的心态呢？爱情的关键是两人之间要有起码的信任，真心爱才会真吃醋。



有感情但从不吃醋，恐怕是双方谁都不在意谁。如果一辈子一起生活整天相敬如宾，没有波浪、没有起伏、没有感情上的沟沟坎坎磕磕碰碰，死水一潭，生活还有什么 乐趣？从这个意义上讲，吃醋会不会也是一种爱、一种提醒、一种监督、一种约束？话说回来，有哪个人不吃醋？！因此，请你们好好的珍惜那位在你身边总是为了 小事吃醋生气的那个人吧！为了小事而经常生气...因为，能够被一个人这样深深的爱着，是一种幸福。



相爱的男女朋友对对方的一举一动，总是会胡思乱想的，很正常。情人的眼里是容不下任何小沙子的。



真正爱你的人，是无法在你和其他异性聊天打电话谈笑风声时，没有任何感觉的。假如她不会吃醋，那么请你不要高兴，因为她可能不是真的爱你，不是很在乎你。

为什么男人要和其他女人频繁联系？真的只是单纯的好朋友吗？别欺骗自己了，那么多女人，为什么就只是她？因为，你们一定是彼此喜欢，就算没有，也有一点点， 或是一点点点……对吧？或许，你对她真的没有爱情，但站在你的另一半的角度去想，换做是你你会不会真的一点不在乎呢？毕竟，你会和你现在的女朋友在一起， 当初，也是从聊得来的普通朋友开始的吧！



真的，好好的去珍惜现在你身边那位会管你，会吃你醋的人吧！不要觉得她不讲道理，因为如果要讲理，那就做普通朋友就好了，普通朋友就不会管你，而且，还会永远说你好话。



相爱的情人，任何的吵闹、嫉妒、猜忌、孩子气等行为，都是合理正常的。再完美的人，一旦爱了，也一样像个孩子，偶尔自私，偶尔奢望...换个角度想想，你是 幸福的。如果，有个人这样深爱着你，千万别不懂珍惜。

我们能不能不分手~

其实，有你，真好！
爱是一种付出，即使痛苦也会觉得甘愿．
爱是一种直着，即使心碎也会觉得无悔．
我不知道是不是所有女人都会为用生命去保卫自己的爱情！
但是我相信爱情的力量！
有些时候，爱`真的说不出来！
有些时候，爱`就是望着你忽然泪留满面！
所以`你要原谅！
如果我说不出那句“我爱你”，不是我不爱你！
而是我真的很爱你！
爱到只听的到自己的心跳！
所以，你要理解！
当我望着你莫名其妙流下眼泪，不是你做错什么，不是我无理取闹！
是我真的很爱你！
爱到看着你也可以掉下幸福的眼泪！
所以你要抱着我！
因为我真的很怕失去你！
如果我总缠着你，请不要说我不乖！
请不要对我生气！
因为我真的很珍惜和你的每分每秒！
哪怕明明相隔两地！
哪怕只是在电话中相聚！
因为在乎每一次小小意义上的分离！
如果我不会总缠着你，请不要以为我舍得和你说再见了！
你不懂我那一瞬间的失落，是多么想伸出手去抓住你！
你要明白正是为了爱，才悄悄的收起对你的依赖！
也许有一天我们都会埋怨！
也许有一天我们都会犯错！
也许有一天我们都会忽视今天的诺言！
也许有一天我们也会吵架！
所以我们来做个约定好吗？
约好即使吵架也不可以不接听彼此的电话！
约好即使吵架也不可以不好好照顾自己！
约好即使吵架也不可以轻易说分手！
约好即使吵架也不可以伤害自己！
约好即使吵架也不可以错过了...
约好，吵架的时候告诉自己：
错误是短暂的，错过却是永远遗憾的...

爱情，有时候很脆弱！
脆弱到容不下一点点沙！

爱情，有时候很顽强！
顽强到什么也分不开相爱的人！

如果有一天，我们不在任性的不理会一切！
如果有一天，我们不在要求时时都粘在一起！
如果有一天，我们不在傻傻的看着对方微笑！
如果有一天，我们不在不理会柴米油盐！
如果有一天，我们不在是任性的两个小孩！
如果有一天，我们习惯了彼此埋怨...
请不要说“分手吧，祝你快乐！”
因为这一天更应该说:

“我们结婚吧！让我照顾你一辈子！”

其实，我害怕~

天灰的时候我想起了你说的话
再见吧，我们也 许都该长大
天色很黑 你看不见我的眼泪
因为我装无所谓 忍着泪 笑的好狼狈
不想让你太累 不想看你为爱疲惫
不要后退 我怕我会后悔
看着你消失
昨天所有承诺抛在脑后
我像个孩子一样守在角 落
想象你会突然的回过头
你永远不会懂
忘记痛 要多久
回忆倒流回到我们相遇的地方
天很蓝 风很暖 这些画面我割舍不断
我怕孤单 你比谁都更明白
以为你会一直让 我依赖 就算海枯石烂
是我太过天真 还是我爱的太愚蠢
童话剧本 又怎么会成真
看着你走失在我们的爱情
留下苍白而无力的回忆
最后说我爱你 是我所能做的唯一
我知道自己 还是无法忘记
离开你时间该怎么继续
我仍选择放弃
只 因为 太爱你
我还是明白。不是相爱就能在一起一辈子。
还是会想，自己能给对方什么。
天天吵架，天天不安，
即使这一切出自于爱他，
但是，会变质。
分手说多了，会变得毫无意义。
其实，我害怕分手。
越害怕越想躲避。
我知道。即使给了承诺，也会失效。
现实会改变我们。
有时候会怪自己想的太多，想的太遥远
感性快要超过理性，要崩溃，感到无力去诉说了
只是看到了，心痛了，却不愿倾诉
感情就是这样。
一开始是淡淡的喜欢，慢慢会越陷越深，最后无法自拔。
得到害怕失去，
失去又会难过。
那么矛盾的人。

因为太怕失去
所以连快乐里都装满伤悲
想谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情。
即使最后我们各奔东西。
我也想这样爱一个人，
看见他就会笑，
从心里很爱他，
视他为全部，

会因为他的过去，难过，无理取闹
会因为他和别的小姑娘说话，吃醋，生气
分手的时候，会发疯一样拼命打他电话，抽咽地说，还很 爱他。会哭很久很久。
其实，我害怕，你的心里还住了其他的人。
其实，我害怕，时间久了，你会慢慢冷淡我。
其实，我害怕，你会不爱我。
其实，我害怕，我说分手的时候，你不再挽留。
其实，我害怕，在我生气的时候，你不再哄我。
感到害怕就想放弃。
看着你肆无忌惮地说你和她或她，
我还要一遍又一遍告诉自己，不要生气。
你是不是，忘记了我会难过。
想和你沟通，可是看到你，又沉默了。
你会了解我嘛，你会懂我嘛。
我要的真的很简单。

A test in ''♥''

it's holiday after a torturous days of exam..
holidays starts!
but,thr are two complicated and yet conflict feeling in my heart deep inside..
thr's happy,sad,worry...

Im happy,coz i need not to face to notes and try to throw all those stuff in my 'small capacity' brain and throw them out during the exam..it's kinda suffering for me and EXAMS stress me up!=X

Im sad, coz i hv to leave my babe...for hw long??
it's for abt 3 mnths i guess...=(
so sad...
gonna vry vry vry vry vry MISS HIM..........='(
y wan internship wor............y wan do part time wor.................
ppl cant see you.....will miss you der ma...........
babe......you will miss me der hor?

im worry...coz...i sked.....
i sked within dis few mths...my babe will leave me...
i worry,some girl will grab my babe's heart..
i worry, some girl will grab my babe's attention...
i worry..i worry..i worry...
it makes me cry.....='(
hope dis kind of thng wont happen...


don wan to write ler...it's time to slp...
HAppy Holiday~