D.O.W.N

Mood down all of the sudden..
Look for people to chat with, but I couldn't found one..
Feel myself so friendless..
Feels like life is so meaningless.
What else I can do except work in the office?
What else I can do after work?
No chatting, no expressing feelings..
Just drama,drama and drama all the time..
And sometimes minutes,minutes and minutes...
How boring!

I read my best friend's blog before I started wrote this.
I then realised my friend is sick!
Quite serious I think.
Cause she needs six months to cure her sickness with medicine.
What sickness she get, I do not know..
I have not asked her yet.. and she didn't tell me..
haih.. Best Friend? hmm...

Just a random post for today..
I just need a forum/place to express out my feelings..
All those that I did not want to tell anyone..

Bloggie, Thank you for "listening"..

First Anniversary ♥

24 July 2013
It's our First Anniversary ♥

He gave me roses ♥

We went Cotmar Tropicale

Thank you.. ♥

As I always say... I Love You.. ♥

Happiness (?)

I just feel unhappy these few days..
feels like there are things inside my heart but I do not know how to express them out..
Argh! It's suffering
All I want to do is just a big big hug, and tear out as hard as I could..
I just want someone who is there for me, silently..

Somehow, I feel like something changed between me and him..
We could feel unhappy to each other because of a small matter..
 It will be our first anniversary in this coming 24 July..
I don't wish anything unhappy occurs between us..
Please, don't challenge us, Mr. God.

Hope everything goes well..

面对_接受_向前

In the interview,the interviewer ask me to introduce myself and say something about my weaknesses and strengths.

I would say that one of my weaknesses are lack of confidence.

I don't even know since when I became so coward.

I'm afraid and worry of everything.

My academic results, my relationship, 

even now my future career.

I even dare not send out the resume.

Gosh! It's terrible. Yea, I know, it's terrible.

I shouldn't be that way.

After I tell the interviewer about my story,

she analysed myself.

She makes me realised that I'm actually keep refreshing how well I am in the past,

and I actually did not move and and accept the changes that I'm facing.

After she said that, some pictures flashed through my mind.

What she said is true! 

Argh! I hate myself right now actually.

No, I have to make a change.

I have to accept and move on!

Come on Charl! You can do it!
Be brave and you will be proud of yourself!

These are some quotes to motivate myself.

Happy 11 Months ♥

24 June 2013 (Monday)

Yeap, it's today.
It's our 11 months together. =)

I'm blessed!
I feel thankful that I met him.
He is such a loving man.

Dear,
Thank you for loving me;
Thank you for caring me;
Thank you for enduring me;
Thank you for tolerating me;
Thank you for everything.

You do make me feel happy always,
Sometimes you did some stupid actions to make me laugh like mad.
(Other people thinks that you are cool) LOL
Actually you are not cool in front of me, you are a fool? haha

Dear, I Love You!
Happy 11 Months together!♥

Mr.and Mrs.

I believe every girl in this world have a dream.

Even it's not "every", then it would be "most".

I believe most of the girls in this world has a dream.

Just like the fairy tale.

Every girl wish there is a prince who will love her forever.

Every girl wish there is a prince who will marry her.

Yes, this is one of my dream.

Since I grown up, I do wish there is a man who will take care of me.

I do wish to get married with the man I love.

Of course, the man have to love me too.

Since I'm 16, I wish I could get married when I'm 25.

Hmm.. let's see will it comes true in future. =)

One of my best friend is going to get married next year (11 January 2014).

I'm happy to hear this news.

She found her Mr.Right.

Hope she will have happiness ever after. 

Marriage ain't easy.

It's not the same as when in a relationship.

It's a new chapter of the entire life.

It's ain't easy to maintain.

It's a life that we've to learn to be even more responsible than before.

We have to be more tolerance than before.

hmm.. many more that we have to learn to maintain a good marriage.

"Trust" is the most important element.

Although it's challenging, I do wish I could have it.

P/s: I do hope you will be the one, Mr. Goo. =)

 

Mr. Right ♥

             Charlotte & Sheng

I think i found.

I found the Mr. Right =)

We've known each other for more than a year

Probably more than two years.

I don't actually know how long exactly we've known each other

But that's not the main concern.

The main point is, I don't even know that I'll fall in love with him.

N.E.V.E.R seriously.

However, maybe that's what the Man up in the heaven has planned for us.

I don't even know he meant so much for me.

So so much!

From :-

stranger --> wushu mate--> Hi-Bye friend --> listener --> close friend --> lover --> soul mate

I love him more than words can say.

He is:-

my best listener ever;

my best advisor ever;

my best guardian ever;

my best financial advisor;

my best live calculator ever;

my best chef ever?XD

my best person to rely on whenever I'm upset.

I can't imagine my life without him.

Seriously, I can't.

Time flies, we have been together for 10 months.

In the beginning of our love journey, I'm still curious.

I'm wondering can we have a long love journey together.

Cause I know pretty much of his previous love story.

I wonder if he actually let go his previous girlfriend (which I think she looks better than me and he loves her deeply).

I wonder if I'm just the substitution.

But now, I'm happy that we're still together. ^^

I'm happy to be with him.

I feel pampered! 

Feels like I'm his princess.

Yes, he treats me like I'm a princess!

Can you imagine it? How great that feels? =)

It feels very very great! That feeling never stops. Never.

From the beginning till now.

It's still around me.

Dear,

Can i ask you something?

Can we stay with each other forever?

Can we have our own family in future?

Can we treat each other like how we treat each other now in the future?

Can we? =)

I do hope we'll stay forever..

I ♥ You so much!

L.O.V.E ♥

Career

Hey guys! Doing good out there? LOL (I know nobody is going to answer me as this is a private blog XD)

Once again, I'm here to blog.

Ermm.. guess that i'm to free to do this. Cause there would be no time to blog if i'm working.

Yeah, I've stopped working.

Guess what? I applied for a vacancy of Audit Executive. 

That position sounds professional, huh?

However, I did not like it at all..

Yes, it is a job that I just need to sit in the office with the air-conditioner on, work with the formal attire which makes us look very professional. But, maybe I'm an outgoing person, I can;t stand the 'boring-ness' in the office, so...I quit. =D

I seriously feel accounting doesn't suits me at all.. 

I regret I took it very very much..

What I can do now is just search for the jobs that I can stand with.

Till now, I'm searching..

Wish me luck guys! =)

 

Future . Uncertainty

With a winked of eye,

it's been almost 4 years I'm here with Tunku Abdul Rahman College

My tertiary education institution.

It surprised me that I've survived. LOL

I mean, I could endure for such a long time here.

I was once thinking of giving up,

I couldn't handle the stress that I'm facing.

I cried, yes, I cried.

I cried out of my lungs,

till my eyes was swollen.

However, I persisted. 

And now, I'm almost graduated.

Yes, I did it. Advanced Diploma In Business Studies In Accounting.

I'm glad that I did not give up. 

I'm glad that there are friends and family who being so supportive when I'm in dilemma.

Sincerely,Thank you!

Time waited for no one.

It has come to the time for me to explore the real world.

I can't imagine..

I can't imagine how it looks like, the world outside.

I guess, 

it would be,

full of competition

fake people all over the place

nobody is going to be truthful to you.

Yeah, I guess that would be how it looks like.

That is why I'm afraid.

I'm not willing to face the reality.

I'm worry.

If i could, I wish I need not face the world forever,

but I know very clearly, 

this will not happened.

Cause, as human lives, they need money to survive.