崩溃

我真的崩溃了...

一连串的assignment 和小考让我喘不过气来

我无法再继续下去

觉得自己不是读这一科的料子..=(

好想放弃_

现在的我根本连望notes都不要..

没人能帮得了，除了自己

可我连帮也不想帮我自己

谁能告诉我

我该怎么办..

choose according your will

i feel like crying

i feel so stupid

and

i feel so sorry

sorry to myself

sorry to my parents

and

sorry to my group members

since the new semester starts,

i don't know what am i doing.

i don't even understand what the lecture or the tutor taught or said

i don't even understand what should i answer in the assignment question

i don't even understand what should i answer in the individual test during mid-term

it's wrong since the beginning

i should have choose the field that i interested with

i should have not choose the field that i'm not interested with

i hate accounts

i hate mathematics

i hate calculations

maybe

i should discuss with my parents

i should withdraw from this sucks course

i should not waste my time doing things that i don't like

这两天的我有点失落
再过两个星期就是我Diploma 的毕业典礼了..
早前一个月我就通知家人
好让他们当天能出席
尤其是老爸
可昨天他却说他没办法出席
原因？
要工作
咳...
工作固然重要
但
难道一天不工作不行吗?
我真的很希望当天爸爸能出席
一起分享我的喜悦..
我这小小的要求也不能为我牺牲一天的工作吗?
我真的很失落
我真的很失望
我真的很难过

it's around the corner

aww...it's around the corner!!

every time i think about it,

i feel worry

i feel disappointed

i want some miracle

i want some surprise

but i know miracle and surprises will not come

miracle,

surprises will not come to those who didn't did their best=(

yes, it will not!

10 more days, 10 more days results will be announce.

arh!! suffering =(

but if i fail, i will have no regret

cause i really did it badly.

if i pass, Thank God !!

see what's my result 10 days later.=X

counting down 13days

it's the day i looking for every year..

don't know why i'm so looking forward.

maybe cause

i love party?

i love surprises?

i love present?

but always i can;t get as what i expected.

maybe my expectation is too high..

i wish to have surprises..

but always there was zero surprises.

i wish that something can makes me feel touch and make my tears to flow out,

but....

hmm...i hope there would be something special this year.=)

holidays with worry

finally, it comes to the end

and here comes the holidays..

but it was not a happy holidays..

it was a worry holidays =(

what makes me feel worry?

is this the question you wanna ask?

well,

its my final exam result i'm worrying

it was not as good as i expected.

i can feel it, coz i didn't do well ..=(

i do hope there was miracle in this world for this moment.

for real, i do hope.

i do hope i can graduate smoothly not to disappoint my parents.

i hope i can be pride for my parents in front of their friends.

don't you think so?

don't you think when you have children and they did well you will be proud in front of ur frens?

for now,

i still in the 'ocean' of worry.

i'm in the ocean.

hope for miracle too.

final semester of Diploma.

after 2 years of study

here comes the final semester of my Diploma life..

and here comes the final exam..

good luck in exam everyone!=)