其实，我害怕~

天灰的时候我想起了你说的话
再见吧，我们也 许都该长大
天色很黑 你看不见我的眼泪
因为我装无所谓 忍着泪 笑的好狼狈
不想让你太累 不想看你为爱疲惫
不要后退 我怕我会后悔
看着你消失
昨天所有承诺抛在脑后
我像个孩子一样守在角 落
想象你会突然的回过头
你永远不会懂
忘记痛 要多久
回忆倒流回到我们相遇的地方
天很蓝 风很暖 这些画面我割舍不断
我怕孤单 你比谁都更明白
以为你会一直让 我依赖 就算海枯石烂
是我太过天真 还是我爱的太愚蠢
童话剧本 又怎么会成真
看着你走失在我们的爱情
留下苍白而无力的回忆
最后说我爱你 是我所能做的唯一
我知道自己 还是无法忘记
离开你时间该怎么继续
我仍选择放弃
只 因为 太爱你
我还是明白。不是相爱就能在一起一辈子。
还是会想，自己能给对方什么。
天天吵架，天天不安，
即使这一切出自于爱他，
但是，会变质。
分手说多了，会变得毫无意义。
其实，我害怕分手。
越害怕越想躲避。
我知道。即使给了承诺，也会失效。
现实会改变我们。
有时候会怪自己想的太多，想的太遥远
感性快要超过理性，要崩溃，感到无力去诉说了
只是看到了，心痛了，却不愿倾诉
感情就是这样。
一开始是淡淡的喜欢，慢慢会越陷越深，最后无法自拔。
得到害怕失去，
失去又会难过。
那么矛盾的人。

因为太怕失去
所以连快乐里都装满伤悲
想谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情。
即使最后我们各奔东西。
我也想这样爱一个人，
看见他就会笑，
从心里很爱他，
视他为全部，

会因为他的过去，难过，无理取闹
会因为他和别的小姑娘说话，吃醋，生气
分手的时候，会发疯一样拼命打他电话，抽咽地说，还很 爱他。会哭很久很久。
其实，我害怕，你的心里还住了其他的人。
其实，我害怕，时间久了，你会慢慢冷淡我。
其实，我害怕，你会不爱我。
其实，我害怕，我说分手的时候，你不再挽留。
其实，我害怕，在我生气的时候，你不再哄我。
感到害怕就想放弃。
看着你肆无忌惮地说你和她或她，
我还要一遍又一遍告诉自己，不要生气。
你是不是，忘记了我会难过。
想和你沟通，可是看到你，又沉默了。
你会了解我嘛，你会懂我嘛。
我要的真的很简单。

A test in ''♥''

it's holiday after a torturous days of exam..
holidays starts!
but,thr are two complicated and yet conflict feeling in my heart deep inside..
thr's happy,sad,worry...

Im happy,coz i need not to face to notes and try to throw all those stuff in my 'small capacity' brain and throw them out during the exam..it's kinda suffering for me and EXAMS stress me up!=X

Im sad, coz i hv to leave my babe...for hw long??
it's for abt 3 mnths i guess...=(
so sad...
gonna vry vry vry vry vry MISS HIM..........='(
y wan internship wor............y wan do part time wor.................
ppl cant see you.....will miss you der ma...........
babe......you will miss me der hor?

im worry...coz...i sked.....
i sked within dis few mths...my babe will leave me...
i worry,some girl will grab my babe's heart..
i worry, some girl will grab my babe's attention...
i worry..i worry..i worry...
it makes me cry.....='(
hope dis kind of thng wont happen...


don wan to write ler...it's time to slp...
HAppy Holiday~

~♥Happy Winter Solstice♥～

Winter Solstice!!!^^
hv a great day with my babe and his wushu frens..
lee peng,
ah fook,
ah yeu,
yuri,
yue feng,
keng seng~

went for dinner with
babe,
lee peng,
ah fook,
and ah yue
at PV7

after tat,
went to yue feng's hse to make 'TONG YUN"~^^
vry hao wan yi xia~=D
1st time make tong yun in front of frens ><
feel a bit pai seh..
haha^^
some more is nt vry vry close der fren tim..haha!

hmmm...
feel happy after the tong yun is ready to be served ^^

Dataran Merdeka..[photos]

7 dec 2010

went to sg. wang & times square with my frends and dear..
there is a reason for me to go shopping tat day
guess wat??
Ta Dang!!
is to buy christmas for my frens..=)
Peai Yee
Irene
&
Kew..^^

dunu they will like it or nt oo...
so worry...><
reli hope they wil like it oo...*pray*

before the day and on the day we shopping,
my mind still thnking wat present i shud buy..
hmm...
finally..
i bought something..
cant tell for nw..
i would tell after christmas=)

reli hope u guys like it..

hmm...
for my dear..
i haven buy ur christmas present oo..
u wont unhappy der hor~^^

13 more days to go...
count down-ing~^^
hohoho...Merry Christmas~^^

wings~

finally..
everythng has done..
tests,assignments...
all done
no more assignment to do and no more test to sit..relax=)
but after 3 weeks,
the 'war' comes...><
so scare yi xia..
hope my wish could come true oo..
'don't failed again this sem...'
haiz..

8th december 2010--[abnormal mii ]

in the middle of the nite
i cried..

for everything..
for loneliness..
for love..
for friendship..
for studies..

for current situation..

for future..

my mind and heart was confuse..

cant catch wat i want..

wanted to find someone to chat with

but i failed..

i dont want to tell my frends around me ..

dont want them to worry abt me..

dont wanna tell my babe..

haiz..

my heart is lonely..

dunu wat to write ler..

so moody..